frazzly 3 ahhh please listen to me

people are so annoying sometimes as  quite  simply  DO NOT LISTEN   to me   currently I am getimg so called  help   from an autistic   charity which is fine   but the  problem is     I dont  need  the kind of help they  want to give me  also    would  consider  myself a  free   spirit  and   need  to be  free !!

Social  services   in their   wisdom   decided  to give me 4hrs   support   in the   week  when all  i want is   2   as  i   can travel    were ever   i want  on the  bus  and i am a  mouthy git   so need to   have  people  who  have a personality  of a  slug  (should be nice to slugs)    but i just need   someone to pop  in    once a week   to make   sure    not  drowning  in my books  etc  !!

I  have  asked  them a month   ago  to reduce    the hrs as my life    is  to full  with   voluntary   work and  reading groups     that  i have  no time   free  which in turn is   getting me  Annoyed   think u have  gathered  that by  now !!

AS  well as  having aspergers   syndrome i am also a   brittle   diabetic so when  my  life is stressful  the blood sugar     go all  over   the place    generally   very high    and increase   my   chance of  going into  hosi   so would  it  not be    better  to reduce  the hrs  and my   health  would  improve  but  NO  all   I   GET IS  TRY  IT FOR   A BIT LONGER   !!!  UMMM  DONT  YOU THINK I KNOW MYself  VERY WELL   to know  what  is  best for  me  not   a   social  worker    who    has  just read  text books !!!

fealing a bit better  now  got   this  all  out to whoever  is  their listening    ( just be  grateful  that you  are not  writing  something   handwritten  ho hum    going for  read umm   just remember  to   breathe and read !!!!  (SORRY)

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my life feels at times as full of elephants

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ahhh its over

the joy of Christmas

the joy of Christmas

as much as  I enjoy Christmas   when it arrives   must admit is quite a relief perhaps   being an aspie   thing  being  haphazard  and never   really knowing  what will  happen next  is a strain on everyone as heard  lots  of  people  grin  and say  all back to  normal on the  6th !!!

I  have not much   to do  on the  6th  as take   christmas  cards  etc  to my  mums as spend  alot of time theit  or   to be  truthful  to lazy  to take   everything  down  and up  let my mum  do it !! ha

As a whole   looking  back christmas season  has  gone   quite well  apart   from   well few   blips   that  must really  concentrate  and think  NOT END OF WORLD ALTHOUGH  writing  this has   reminded me  that  my  back door is  kind of in  half  after  i  forgot to  close   it properly  behind me   this  caused  alot of   ahhhhhh    and xxxxxxxxx and this  is   going  to cost me   loads of  dosh  to my  dad  letting  me know  it  would  not big  breath and  count to 100   can you feel my agitation!!

Yesterday   my mum and me  went to liverpool to see  snow-white  we  had no  kids  but  I am very  vocal i was   very careful  getting  ready to go as   checked  had my  insulin   and  the  tickets   checking the  time  as last year   the  panto  was not a  ho ! HO ! ho  affair as  wrongly  presumed  that   Everything in the  evening  starts at  7.30 it  does  not  and  we  arrived 30 mins late   and   also  had to wait to go in so  was  not the  happiest  of outings  but all went well  2 day  got in and  laughed  o !  ho ho    ( always  be prepared)

well  back to my reading  groups   tomorrow    think  starting Anna  k   tomorrow  although I am still  waffling my way through    Middlemarch ( good  after  first  50 pages  )  and then  Richard 11 in pm   so better  put my brainy head  on !!

Now to tidy  and it’s not the  decs !!!  all the best  !

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not looking 2 good 2014 frazzly 2

a day very much a mixture of emotions  had  a mad  tidy up before   going  to library were reading   Diary of   a nobody  which must  admit  is  quite   an apt   title  as   yer  quite  away in and not much happening but  amusing  and raises   a chuckle maybe it is  my humour  cells  but  deffo  don’t  laugh as much as  the librarian  who can hardly  read for laughing  takes  all sorts I suppose

went to town  were   i should  not really have gone    as  came   back  with  things  did  not really  need as  cupboards are full and deffo   don’t need  any more  books   ec  but  it is like  a magnet to me  i am  always  looking  for  bargains  if I see  something  reduced   something   goes   buzz  MUST  must  HAVE   WHEN  DEEP  INSIDE   deep   know  I DO NOT   NO BANKRUPT   shops  by me !!!

I have   been  very frazzled    about     wi-fi  connections at  my mums   we  don’t know the  number  ahhhahh   END OF WORLD   which causes  great  distress  especially when I  got  a kindle   for my birthday  which   I   could  not  download  books on  ” take   it back no  more tech  books with pages   ( get the picture ) after  asking  for months  to get  it sorted  from mr   computer  man he  came  yesterday and  thought lallalalala all  well   but  this  lasted for  about an  hr  before   replugging  computer  realised   space bar  not working and    to top  it all must have   pressed  a wrong   BUTTON  everything  went upside  down so screamed  what has he done and  run  back to my  mums  and  brought  this ancient  thing  back ( incase you  were  wondering )!!! she is  typing

Have  to keep   thinking  things  can only get  better!! and only  2 days  in to new year  !!! nearly forgot  u should  not eat   yogurt  out of pot  in kitchen as  goes  all over  the  clothes   KEEP CALM COUNT  TO 10000




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Neurological Nightmare

Neurological Nightmare.

wow so impressed    by the poem seemed  to hit it  right on the spot by a poem of mine aday

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2014 looking forward

time for looking forward not an easy thing to do if got aspergers as tend to go over thing in my mind of disasters turning them over and over I keep trying to concentrate on the good easier said than done.  people say to  live in the moment  not regretting the  past or planning the  future but living in the moment !!! must  admit feel a lot better then yesterday (previous post  ranting  and raving about   google  earth not working  but  not going  down that path.

At this precise  moment  gone to  mums to watch  sound of music and  all main worries of  back door bust and dosh probs fast disappearing  yes I have watched  it thousands of times  but makes  u realise  sometimes  things  that  can be  horrific at the  time  can in the long  run be for  the best !!

I have no idea  were this  year will take  me  if you weigh  the bad and good together  think on the whole  the  good wins   but so difficult to remember , although it does not good  to focus on the past  sometime  you have to do so to see  the  whole picture  just wondering  were the path of life will  take me  just have to be  patient  and wait and  see

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 not to sure  feel as   new  year approaches a been in a fowl mood as Asperger’s has taken control for last few hrs   got in a massive frazzle which in years to come  will prob look rather silly as the year progresses

what was the frazzle about u are wondering  !!

umm prob sounds  stupid but here goes

well went out to local pub with parents although  fridges  were  full and no room at supermarkets to get in off we went  I was really  happy and met  up with various people  one a total  surprise as used to live  beneath me  and had no  recognition  (how time flies ) still no sign of  frazzle

but when arriving  back  at parents   AND HAVING   a general catch up on facebook  when mum insisted on going google earth  and   nosing peoples homes this was the frazzle began as  could not find the address  and got more  frazzled as could not  find what  she wanted  and ended  up with me  coming   home   saying  ” stupid houses  why do u want to nose  at peoples houses  and a lot more xxxxxxxx   u get  the picture  when aspergers   takes control  it sure  does it in style well   maybe  style is the wrong word but  still   out with   the oldas they say and in with  the new   but  I find it  very difficult   of things that  frazzle me but maybe is time to count to 100000000 and start  again



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