people are so annoying sometimes as quite simply DO NOT LISTEN to me currently I am getimg so called help from an autistic charity which is fine but the problem is I dont need the kind of help they want to give me also would consider myself a free spirit and need to be free !!
Social services in their wisdom decided to give me 4hrs support in the week when all i want is 2 as i can travel were ever i want on the bus and i am a mouthy git so need to have people who have a personality of a slug (should be nice to slugs) but i just need someone to pop in once a week to make sure not drowning in my books etc !!
I have asked them a month ago to reduce the hrs as my life is to full with voluntary work and reading groups that i have no time free which in turn is getting me Annoyed think u have gathered that by now !!
AS well as having aspergers syndrome i am also a brittle diabetic so when my life is stressful the blood sugar go all over the place generally very high and increase my chance of going into hosi so would it not be better to reduce the hrs and my health would improve but NO all I GET IS TRY IT FOR A BIT LONGER !!! UMMM DONT YOU THINK I KNOW MYself VERY WELL to know what is best for me not a social worker who has just read text books !!!
fealing a bit better now got this all out to whoever is their listening ( just be grateful that you are not writing something handwritten ho hum going for read umm just remember to breathe and read !!!! (SORRY)
my life feels at times as full of elephants
the joy of Christmas
as much as I enjoy Christmas when it arrives must admit is quite a relief perhaps being an aspie thing being haphazard and never really knowing what will happen next is a strain on everyone as heard lots of people grin and say all back to normal on the 6th !!!
I have not much to do on the 6th as take christmas cards etc to my mums as spend alot of time theit or to be truthful to lazy to take everything down and up let my mum do it !! ha
As a whole looking back christmas season has gone quite well apart from well few blips that must really concentrate and think NOT END OF WORLD ALTHOUGH writing this has reminded me that my back door is kind of in half after i forgot to close it properly behind me this caused alot of ahhhhhh and xxxxxxxxx and this is going to cost me loads of dosh to my dad letting me know it would not big breath and count to 100 can you feel my agitation!!
Yesterday my mum and me went to liverpool to see snow-white we had no kids but I am very vocal i was very careful getting ready to go as checked had my insulin and the tickets checking the time as last year the panto was not a ho ! HO ! ho affair as wrongly presumed that Everything in the evening starts at 7.30 it does not and we arrived 30 mins late and also had to wait to go in so was not the happiest of outings but all went well 2 day got in and laughed o ! ho ho ( always be prepared)
well back to my reading groups tomorrow think starting Anna k tomorrow although I am still waffling my way through Middlemarch ( good after first 50 pages ) and then Richard 11 in pm so better put my brainy head on !!
Now to tidy and it’s not the decs !!! all the best !
a day very much a mixture of emotions had a mad tidy up before going to library were reading Diary of a nobody which must admit is quite an apt title as yer quite away in and not much happening but amusing and raises a chuckle maybe it is my humour cells but deffo don’t laugh as much as the librarian who can hardly read for laughing takes all sorts I suppose
went to town were i should not really have gone as came back with things did not really need as cupboards are full and deffo don’t need any more books ec but it is like a magnet to me i am always looking for bargains if I see something reduced something goes buzz MUST must HAVE WHEN DEEP INSIDE deep know I DO NOT NO BANKRUPT shops by me !!!
I have been very frazzled about wi-fi connections at my mums we don’t know the number ahhhahh END OF WORLD which causes great distress especially when I got a kindle for my birthday which I could not download books on ” take it back no more tech books with pages ( get the picture ) after asking for months to get it sorted from mr computer man he came yesterday and thought lallalalala all well but this lasted for about an hr before replugging computer realised space bar not working and to top it all must have pressed a wrong BUTTON everything went upside down so screamed what has he done and run back to my mums and brought this ancient thing back ( incase you were wondering )!!! she is typing
Have to keep thinking things can only get better!! and only 2 days in to new year !!! nearly forgot u should not eat yogurt out of pot in kitchen as goes all over the clothes KEEP CALM COUNT TO 10000
wow so impressed by the poem seemed to hit it right on the spot by a poem of mine aday
time for looking forward not an easy thing to do if got aspergers as tend to go over thing in my mind of disasters turning them over and over I keep trying to concentrate on the good easier said than done. people say to live in the moment not regretting the past or planning the future but living in the moment !!! must admit feel a lot better then yesterday (previous post ranting and raving about google earth not working but not going down that path.
At this precise moment gone to mums to watch sound of music and all main worries of back door bust and dosh probs fast disappearing yes I have watched it thousands of times but makes u realise sometimes things that can be horrific at the time can in the long run be for the best !!
I have no idea were this year will take me if you weigh the bad and good together think on the whole the good wins but so difficult to remember , although it does not good to focus on the past sometime you have to do so to see the whole picture just wondering were the path of life will take me just have to be patient and wait and see
not to sure feel as new year approaches a been in a fowl mood as Asperger’s has taken control for last few hrs got in a massive frazzle which in years to come will prob look rather silly as the year progresses
what was the frazzle about u are wondering !!
umm prob sounds stupid but here goes
well went out to local pub with parents although fridges were full and no room at supermarkets to get in off we went I was really happy and met up with various people one a total surprise as used to live beneath me and had no recognition (how time flies ) still no sign of frazzle
but when arriving back at parents AND HAVING a general catch up on facebook when mum insisted on going google earth and nosing peoples homes this was the frazzle began as could not find the address and got more frazzled as could not find what she wanted and ended up with me coming home saying ” stupid houses why do u want to nose at peoples houses and a lot more xxxxxxxx u get the picture when aspergers takes control it sure does it in style well maybe style is the wrong word but still out with the oldas they say and in with the new but I find it very difficult of things that frazzle me but maybe is time to count to 100000000 and start again