#paradiselost in scouse #snakes fault

I had  all  intentions of starting this  last week  and indeed I  did  but i was  not in the  best of moods and hit the wrong button and it  flew off the page   and that was that   . Although i am calmer  than last time  i still  have this  crazy idea   that this may help with me  my aspergers as  reading and  writing  tend to calm me  down and stop  me  doing  karate kicks   all over the flat  so here goes  2nd time   lucky

I would love to know what  was  the   first thing   bad thing that  was  ever  done in the world done by a fella and  tasted the  fruit  HE WAS TOLD NOT TOUCH  and  this is why we are in the mess we  are in today although that  bloke  Jesus   did come and try to save us like
I need to know the brainy stuff and you are the ghost who Moses thought was really great and he passed down all those great rules to us
I think I could do with some help though as I want this to be dead good and be like nothing before ever written.
I really need you to teach me to do this and my heart is in the right place which is the right thing better than your fancy churches with their gaudy decor need a makeover most of them
You are a real brainboxand were their right at the beginning.you sat like a giant dove and your wings spread out the darkness and Hey Presto everything sprang into life .
Brighten me when I am a div and make me strong in all my talents so that I can tell everyone gods great plan you know all about heaven and hell so what on earth made Adam and Eve disobey god when they seemed so made up with what they had . He had given them everything except for one tiny little thing
Who on earth was it who made them do it ?
WAit for it WAIT it was of course the snake , he was thirsty for revenge and was green with envy (well Kind of and he decided to get his own back and trick Eve .
IT was pride that was his undoing and he was chucked out of heaven with all his mates .Al his mates supported him like,even when he decided to go into gang warfare with the one and only GOD.
HE WAS doomed from the beginning and for daring God to a bashup he was sent to Hell and for nine days and i suppose nights he and his mates had a kip in the burning fires of hell !!

#PARADISE LOST in scouse WHY #aspergers

ALWAYS BEEN A  READER BUT NOT READ  MUCH OF THE  deep heavy stuff  until  the last five  years  when I joined  a shared  reading group  were I discovered a love of reading  the deep stuff  the  deeper the better  as you tend  to get  a real sense of  accomplishment   when you  finish  something  big  especially  if you understood it  !!

I have  dabbled  in Shakespeare   the last five   years   and thoroughly enjoyed it so when the  opportunity  came to read  paradise  lost  in a  group setting I was made up  although must admit  at times felt it was hellish I always came home in a goodish  mood  but twice  I arrived  to  read the said play  and twice  two  weeks  running it was not on   I was beginning   to get ratty as having aspergers  means  I get annoyed over what  may be considered quite  small things  .  the 2nd time   the  group  was cancelled  I decided this was  sign not to  go as  don’t think  God likes   paradise lost  much  as it is Miltons  version of  events not his  .

I  began  to feel a meltdown come   on and jumped  about and  cursed  a lot (  I am very  good at his BUT  then I  put my duvet on well over my head   were I had  abrian wave  I like the big    things and  the bigger the  better  so decided   that   paradise lost is not   really   FOR THE   every day  person so lets  rewrite  in scouse      I realise  this  is a bit mad  but  I am mad well ish and  actually  like writing   stuff  especially  from old fashioned  twaddle  into   god language  s couse  ummm  feel a lot better  no    so  now to start  but  think will  have  a cuppa   first  alright la

frazzled with stuff #aspergers

ha have not written for such a long time as am frazzled with stuff well life to be more precise I had an idea to write a blog all year to see if someone with aspergers can have a happy year but have come to the conclusion by the end of the march that the answer is deffo a big fat NO as I can’t get stuff out of my head so whereas most people can forget the ups and downs of life I am still jumping up and down hysterically days months even years after the event ! even if it aomething quite trivial like a bus arriving at 9.15 instead of 9.10
so NO it is impossible to have a happy year but hey looking after the past few months since last written I have had a few good days which i suppose makes life livable !
I am probably feeling frazzled as it is easter and my brother and his family coming to stay which will send all my routine sky high but it is only for a few days I do love my nieces kind of

do love them !!

I am feeling much calmer after getting my thoughts down so will have to try it more often famous last words

just playing

as sweet as a daisy

can an #aspie have a happy year day 15

umm still annoyed about bus pass   but keep thinking it will surely  come through the post  soon and  yes  I must be more careful famous last words

I was quite lively  so decide  to walk to town as does not take long  went to  waterstones  were  their is a book group  every Monday  although most of the time   don’t  read the  stuff  set  unless  it is short as like to do my own thing  !!  I would  not say I  am    a fast or a slow reader  but do like to take everything in and you cant  do  that if it has to be finished at a certain day !

Today we  were Reading the monkey by Karen  blitzen from out of Africa  fame , I  must admit found it difficult to  follow at times and difficult  to keep thread of the  story and quite  a few of the others  thought the same  , I must  admit  I was beginning to feel  sicker and  sicker  and had  a quick check to realise  I had come out  ithout  my insulin !!!!

I realised  what had happened  i had woken to my bloods  feeling low  at 2  and had  eaten before injecting  and the come out without my gear  (sounds cool that  gear  my mind was  whirling  but stayed here i was thinking  no one  seems to  have noticed the  panic  swishing through my body

I enjoyed  the rest of the  book group  having a  general  chat  and then zoomed  to Asda  to get  supplies of water as knew  I  could  get  a thirst to beat all thirsts but hey ho I did not i warned a few people in my Shakespeare  group may leave all of a sudden  but maybe because i enjoyed playing the lady of the night so much  I appeared to be unscathed

I walked  home  dispite half way  being thumped on the head  ,no ambulance needed  as waS ONLY  HAILSTONES  and what  was their  to greet  me was my buspass  yey freedom of the  world unites  (think getting a bit over  excited  but still)

ALLs well ends well  told you I like Shakespeare !  My blood was not to bad  at 16  but hey it rose to 22  after giving insulin and tea  so maybe not so well as could  be  expected !

the mountains dominate

does not matter if the weath er is sunny in the welsh village of llan ffestiniog the mountain weather takes over

can an #aspie have a happy year January 9th

calm views =calm thoughts

I had all intentions of   going to Liverpool  to get the last bargains of the  festive period , and was  really happy leaving my flat til got to the  stop and no pass was to be found as the  bus came round the corner and I waved it away I frantically searching through silly cards that we all carry round and went home although this put an end to my plans of going to liverpool

I got to Birkenhead and realised I had nothing to read this causes me GREAT UPSET AS i always have something to read even if its rubbish I must read or carry something to read so quickly got something relatively interesting but calm thoughts began to enter head .
I told them abouT MY PASS AND they told me would have a new one within a week to 10 days NOOOOOOOOO I THOUGHT THEY would give me one straight  away seeing this is  the age of technology why can’t i have one Now I had completely forgotten calm thoughts and was stomping  but only  in my head luckily   I am really glad people cant see in side  my head  when I  have thoughts  like this  as I w ould  be locked  up  and the key be thrown a way.

I walked  home or stomped  kept trying to say  will have it back next week , I  must remember retelling the  story at a mental  health support   group  generally helped and   managed to put a smile on peoples faces  with my stories  of  calamity  so I suppose  not good   but hey  the  exercise will do me good !!