I have aspergers ptsd more or less certain adhd and have often wondered over the years wether these conditions are considered to the universe to be a help or hindrance are we a total pain to society or if these conditions did not exist wld the world be missing out on so much !!
often i ask myself is their point to having all these conditions the more often i ask myself what is the point of all this the more difficult it is to answer although the last few years I try to sort of show people what life is actually like with these conditons
I at times , well quite often i feel suicidal and i know that the more high functioning an austistic person is the more likely they are to commmit suicide . I often think one conditon is enough for one person to deal with and wonder what % of the world are autistic adhd got ptsd also add to that diabetic dyspraxic and not forgetting my sore thumb I really bet not many and sadly the people who do go ahead and commit suicide perhaps the world shld remember it is not cowardly to do such a thing it is just that sometimes you hurt so much that you cant continue i have tried to commit suicide countless times but since meeting the poem Invictus i have hope that if i get through this so called bad time I can get through anything
Especially with the beginning of the poem Out of the night that covers me black as the pit from pole to pole or if one day i will get out of my black hole and perhaps help others get out of the hole also !!! as my wish / hope is to one day get the horrifoc intrusive thoughts out of my head and start living !!! but in the meantime i have my thoughts writing books to muse over !!!!! ( woe wo e woe )
deep breath and think of the posotives of flag waving and badge wearing about these conditons was relatively pleased going to be various be proud and autistic events coming forward next month very good for people just been diagnosed cos honestly feel so alone at times even when in a room full of people like what pride has done for various sexual orientations this cld be a big step forward for the asd adhd and all other letters that make up life so we are not judged like freaks and to scared to hold a proper conversation with me ad show that we are on the while relatively normal so many poople have these conditons here i s a few
Justin timberlake Jamie oliver michael phelps Ryan gosling Sir Richard Branson
Sir Anthony Hopkins ( love his acting) GARY NEWMAN
Chris pack ham ( did great tv prog last year )
Anne hegarty the chase told people aBOUT IT LAST YEAR AND BIG FUSS on media why not just say all this is part of u !!
Sue boyle say not more and then their is the highly likeys
Woody Allen Michael Palin ????? um really Alfred hitchock Isaac newton
Charles Darwin Hanns c Anderson George orwell !!!!!!! wolfgang Mozart Beethoven and michael Jackson ( yep can see that now mentioned Thomas eddison
of course the g reat tv characters who can forget Basil Fawlty or Mr been and not forgetting spock !!!!!!
people with ptsd is whoppi goldeberg Monica Seles ( remember her being stabbed )
Mick jagger think someone he knew committed suicide and Jackie Onasis with JfK when he was shot
so yer their is a few of us out and about
I suppose it is a matter of choice how we live our lives and dont want to be a bible basher telling everyone you meet but and realise we have something o offer and often thik the world wld be a less creative fun place without us !!!!