Been having ultra stressful time ha i think i have said this before yer everyone’s life is stressful but honestly think u would really know w hat stress was if me for a day the other day i went for supposedly emdr session supposedly to help with PTSD but ROB reckons it is ocd and intrusive thought which is the main problem and going over over a nd over the same thing according to him everyone has intrusive thoughts but most people just manage to knock them away like a tennis player but i cant seem to be able to do this ,
I say Invictus to myself ( well bits of it ) and sometimes try and set it to music at the moment i am not going past the line “OUT of the pit tha covers me and then say out out out repeatedly and it is the word out that is springing up at me one day hopefully my head wont be in this torment .
AT the same time i am thinking you are stuck with this for ever and the only time i am going to be at full peace is when dead !!!! cos i am really at peace when asleep , this is why never want to get up and out of bed but I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul and their are times when i am happy or happyish ( is that a word )
According to ROb everyone has bad thoughts which i suppose is true this rises a smirk like i suppose the Queen must get bit fed up cutting ribbons and even the pope must get fed up with patting people on the head !!!!
I read alot of psychology books actually i will read any book in the universe but nothing on LFC football club for personal reasons ( if u happen to be a red xxxx please don’t hold this against me quite sure u dont read stuff on the bluenoses !!!!! )
anyhow this famous psychologist abraham maslow according to Wikipedia is the 10th best psychologist in the words ( so not the best ) and invented this pyramid of needs or something but the other thing he noted most importantly is no-one on the planet is perfect and everyone has off/ on days , I think rob the Emdr was trying to make me feel better and he did but only by 2% , their are people who are really good ultra very annoying my mum is very saintly and annoys me with her putting everyone else before u this is how u lose your life on a sinking ship by being nice to nice !!!
I think my head is in a very dark place at the moment but sure with bit of care things will get better !!! famous last words as no-one can be nice all the time not even my mother and God have i seen her lose it !!!!!