can an #aspie have a happy year day 4 #reading /#meltdown

 umm felt ok   waking although not had much sleep as  still thinking about life of pi and  felt A ok  and just lazing around mostly , I  normally  go and  read to  an elderly lady  on a friday  but still  recovering  from  festivities   not that i did  all that much  but really takes  it out of  me the  run up to christmas .

I deciided  to go to the  hospital to have my dinner  this seems a strange place to eat for  mr ordinary but I am not  ordinary and  it is  reasonnably  priced as  a young child  I spent alot of time  in the hospital  so that s why I feel at home and   dont   go in to  panic mode about being  round medical things ,

Due to my aspergers  I have  a thing   abo gouting to the same places and I like the hospital as always  has  a good  selection of books both new and secondhand  if I lived to  be  110   would not read all  my  books in my flat  bu t cant seem to  keep away

I  met a friend  who had not seen for  years  I used to  work with her in the  hosi  but at times felt she treated me  like an idiot  (which I am not ) as was fealing miffed  at not getting a card for years from her for   Christmas i know you  do not  give to recieve   but don’t like it when all one way as you tend to crash

my mum told  me the minute  you dont send a card  you see them so a bit  weird andy how made arrangements  to meet

I   decided to watch  the young victoria  which had seen before   but all a sudden had a meltdown  as  kept thinking of  something  which happened   before christmas   when mum rang  me wanting to know were \i was  as 6.00 and why was i out in the  rain  I kept repeating  the  same thoughts over and over  “don’t panic  if not in I am an adult  and other  such words  when this   happens  i cant stop the  thoughts  and go quite  hysterical and  clench my teeth   it took ages to calm down and eventually went to sleep  which was a good thing as  slept hardly at all last night  but that was because in a good mood  !! anyhow  because of meltdown give it a  4


About loubyjo

I have all my life been fascinated by words and books especially I used to have this strange idea that I could read every book in the world well maybe just 80% of them . My life can at times be really stressful as suffer my brains wires are all wonky which results in me having aspergers syndrome thats probably where all my crazy ideas spill out from !!!IIIalso have ocd which results in my thoughts getting stuck in my head causing me lots of distress , but hey what is perfection and if i ever met a perfect person it would probably send me fast asleeP AND YOU AS WELL SO iIam hoping to use this blog to let you lnow what it is like to be me !! in the last few years also discovered got ptsd this is were most of probs stem from
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