going round and round in a massive circle #aspiethoughts

I have heard the expression going round in circles countless times but never given it much thought til now so thought would quickly write thoughts down it is interesting to see a circle and actually think there is no beginning or end so where is the beginning or the end this is an interesting concept to me as a person who suffers from aspergers and ocd I  often have the same thoughts going round and round constantly believe u me it is a nightmare !

It is particularly difficult when something bad happens in my day as think about it constantly and put curses people and stamp and grind my teeth constantly the only thing that can stop this is when I read (but u have to be calm to do this or write or set myself a massive project like translating paradise lost into Scouse I kind of get lost with my ideas instead of taking a step back and viewing the whole picture properly instead of getting swallowed up in the small details of life and suppose if being realistic will never do the things I set out to do (don’t tell me that when having a meltdown)

When having a moment which their is many I will think of something that has distressed me and relive the whole moment and perhaps should take a deep breath and breathe slowly step back and think something that has upset me months years ago is not really going to effect me today!! this is easy to do when relatively calm

It is easy to think when in a bad mood that life is a total disaster and wish why here but should really remember that life is a rollercoaster for all and sometimes it is up and sometimes down (think a famous nursery rhyme their  oh  to be  012  a dog   just peaceful thoughts

 

the mountains just be !

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About loubyjo

I have all my life been fascinated by words and books especially I used to have this strange idea that I could read every book in the world well maybe just 80% of them . My life can at times be really stressful as suffer my brains wires are all wonky which results in me having aspergers syndrome thats probably where all my crazy ideas spill out from !!!IIIalso have ocd which results in my thoughts getting stuck in my head causing me lots of distress , but hey what is perfection and if i ever met a perfect person it would probably send me fast asleeP AND YOU AS WELL SO iIam hoping to use this blog to let you lnow what it is like to be me !! in the last few years also discovered got ptsd this is were most of probs stem from
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