I have been on so called THE SICK for well over a decade if u saw me u would prob think pretty outgoing with people she feel comfortable with but who would have any idea of the thoughts wishing washing round and round my head never stopping whirling round going over the past and worrying about the future !!
MY oasis in life is a charity were people read together in groups and i attend regularly called THE READER ORGANISATION which with out i doubt would be here today I go into a reading group and the incessent thoughts sem to vanish !!!
I also do bits of regular volunteer work for them reading each week to an elderly lady and helping at various events such as fairs taking tickets for show u get the picture i do not laze about watching a certain prog on Itv every day whose name escapes me
I think someone could see into my brian and head and be for one day they would be gobsmacked at how i cope but the things i do are not good enough for this so called government as they want me off benifit and into a paid job well as my dad no-one would have me as i come absolutely exhausted talking to people for long periods of time and my head would be come incessently worse til end up in the local hospital
I can understand that some people are out to get wot they can from the system i am not one of them and neither are countless others i regularly attend interviews at the job centre were they send me letters saying if not answer the phone or attend my money will be stopped !!! to give someone a letter like this when suffering from asperpergers ocd ptsd and probably other disorders which can’t remember is diabolical surely in this day and age they could ensure that people who suffer this type of illness do not get such letters !!
Lately the media show people on benefit who seem to be enjoying life yer I go to things i enjoy and to the outsider it looks fine but can u imagine having the same thought going round to give u an idea what it is like for at least the next hour keep saying ” let’s have salami for tea and let me know how u feel at the end I can u tell u know exhausted !!! deep breath and carry on