umm not at all well at the mo think said this the other day a friend told me yesterday if i wrote things down it helps , I found yesterday also doing any thing that u have to concentrate on helps even when it is something relatively simple like face book games as u have to concentrate on the patterens and shapes u r making !!!
My thoughts are whirling out of control and i cant get out of my head the things that have happened to me in the past (abuse ) and people not listening to the word NO which means no even doing the most simple thing if u say no that is what it means
Yesterday I went to a mental health group it is not much help as it is very basic my needs are to put it simply is quite complex !!!!
I go mainly as u are able to take part in various health therapies for a small donation
i had taken a leaflet on emdr but i think i was not making clear what it meant and was over people heads but a light shone the therapist had heard of it and said it was the new flavour in mental health
I told the therapist Siobhan that my health had taken a nose dive and my thoughts would not stop ruminating and she asked it it had got worse since the eclipse the other week and the answer was yes wow she told me things often moved about and caused things to change interesting !!
I had the reiki treatment which i always enjoy and felt the heat in my head after Siobhan told me my head was ultra busy and suggested meditation which is something mean to get into !!
I felt alot calmer but sadly this only lasted for ashort while and the ruminating thoughts were back AAAAAAAH do i have to live like this for ever if so I dont want to the mental pain is to much put it this way if i developed cancer i wo uld refuse all treatment but then writing this down help s and i am on the waiting list for help although the help may come to late !!! as when will the appointment come through the post how long is a piece of string !! deep breath and carry on