stress and strain #reading #gadgets

ahh went to bed bloods slightly low at 4  but had a few munchies  slept okish after   mind  going over and over things i tried abit of  tapping thing and must have worked as dropped off have no idea what time i woke grabbing  for some chocs !!!  i then slept  til 9.30 ish  flat in a bit of mess  after going  hysterical   looking for mobile phone   ahhhhh  why do we need these things  !!!! bang-bang throw  everything  all over the place  then find it  the relief  ahhhh  maybe they r ok   after all  do have slight uses  very slight!!!

I was  calm  the   whole time    discussing    books and   papers   and how they   manipulate people   really learn something new everyday !!!

 my PTSD   thoughts  were      beginning to  go hysterical  when i was  saved my mum  inviting  me to dinner  um ok  although it is  her and my  family who r the  cause  mainly of the majority of  mental  distress !!!!! but that is another  story !!

I  was feeling   calmer   til  mentioned  my  middle   niece and   her upcoming   birthday and    they are   giving money   this is  something    they always  refuse  to    give me money have   t o open  something      ahhhhhh  doing  head   but  suppose   I am on a gadget   and    feel  calmer   ummm  maybe not so  bad  after all  and   birthday is not til   September  any how  so  whats the point  of going  hysterical  now   ummm madness   deep breaths tomorrow is another day


About loubyjo

I have all my life been fascinated by words and books especially I used to have this strange idea that I could read every book in the world well maybe just 80% of them . My life can at times be really stressful as suffer my brains wires are all wonky which results in me having aspergers syndrome thats probably where all my crazy ideas spill out from !!!IIIalso have ocd which results in my thoughts getting stuck in my head causing me lots of distress , but hey what is perfection and if i ever met a perfect person it would probably send me fast asleeP AND YOU AS WELL SO iIam hoping to use this blog to let you lnow what it is like to be me !! in the last few years also discovered got ptsd this is were most of probs stem from
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