I sometimes feel over come by anger that i feel can not continue living sound over the top but true , some people just see the Louise which is boppy and happy others see the Louise who is easily irritated and others see the full blown anger of not being able to control my emotions .
I have always been a reader but more and more people say why dont u write it may calm u and whilst doing this article ( very posh ) i can see what people mean it is something calming about more so then reading although i am not going to give that up in a hurry !!!
people wonder why i am angry very few people know the real me who had their life ripped apart by a sexual attack who is also aspergic and diabetic so no wonder i am angry and crazy especially when u tell the truth to people and they dont believe you !!!
I am so jealous of people who go on tv and seem to forgive what ever has been done to them and broadcasts the fact but something in my head wont let me do that as various thoughts go round and round , i last year diagnosed my self with ptsd and maybe next month i will be get a phone call where to go next ( the powers that be lost my referral )
Anger comes from fear so people say , and in a way i can see why people think that as i never know do i not like people touching me cause aspergic and never really liked touch or is it the deep breaths abuse .
people also say love will overcome and before listening to songs of praise and the football anthem abide with me came on and i did kind of feel that someone was looking after me (i am not religious although used to go to church like to sing ) for those few moments of calm, able to carry on , well this writing thing must be working no longer thinking of ringing th Samaritans for a chat !!!! ummm