HI JUST BEEN told it has been 9 months since last posted wow i am not going to say what most people say who have been waiting for 9 months but really life is pretty much the same , and feel have become very neglectful of writing my thoughts and feeling down which countless people have told me does me good , and that what matters ha !!! no bothered if no one ever reads it but doing this fo r me ultra selfish person that i am ( not )
P eople who have brain disorders should help each other and honestly would not like any one to go through what i go through actually would like an enemy to through it i have always had difficulty thinking ” I Rambling on
I am not going to go on about how come across Invictus but lets just say had a profound effect on me especially the last two lines I am the master of my fate ., I am the captain of my sould because of abuse as a kid i am extremely agitated especially if say the word no and people take no notice
I decided to repeat the last two lines to myself whenever intrusive thoughts entered my head which can only describe as a motor way running through my head without any diversion, and it did divert my thinking but only slightly so i kept thinking need more and that is when decide i am going to learn the lot and see where gets me just letting u know not a great poety lover prefer a novel but this i think hope pray will change every thing ” out of the night that covers me first bit always the hardest !!