ahhh It is sunday and time for confessions although i am not catholic , or anything really just me , i have not forgotten the forementioned poem but sometimes my life can be so STRESSED i compleatly forget to try and remember the lines although saying it louder to myself in my flat and to firmly say this like now !!
I have been seeing someone for a few months to abt helping me with ptsd but had a sneaky feeling this was not going on the right path and last week got told that it was up to me but he does not want to do anything that may inferfere the emdr treatment waiting for with the NHS which will be two years next month .
I have at time tried to remember other different sayings or peoety but at the end i am going ahhh no keep with hopkins , was it him who wrote it sounds right , and manly hopkins banging in my ear drum ,
so really i shld be alot further with learning the whole of invictus but i am not , but on the whole i am doing this for me and no-one else so really you should not be saying , well not much effort in their but yer enough and theirs no exam recital at the end
outof the night that cover me black as the pit from post to post I thank what ever god that may be for my un connquerable soul , yer that sounds okishnn not sure abt the may be , but maybe its in their maybe not , but i will ponder and wonder and thinking of that may stop the ptsd attacking me and of course i am the master of my fate , I am the master of my soul . yer thats it abt time i pulled self together and learnt more upwards and onward wotever !!!
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