Not having the best of days been ultra stressed with ahhhhh ptsd thoughts raging also on top of that my blodds are ultra high and mean high they tend to be on the high side anyway but over 25 is ultra high but given loads of insulin and just have to wait for the insulin to take effect . ( this really sounds like woe is me get the violins out but if u knew me i only really tell people i am yuk when really am cos nought nothing anyone can do )
I think got the first verse of invictus off to a tee and can say it no bother although the first line makes me pause and then tend to shout OUT ahhh thats it i was wondering what the difference to my health the poem creates when i say the poem out loud and my body tends to be more looses and my body seems to come out of its tense pose i reckon look like some creature which is turned to stone and then seems be able to move i drink far to much coffee , i know i do but their u go i know i shld not as get the most horrific heartburn and my head feels very tight when the evil ptsd strikes but i have to make a real effort for it to leave someone told me to say go away but to no affect .
Don t really like the second versy thing of invictus maybe due to having aspergers i dont like to say things that are not true and saying In the fell clutch of circumstance i have not winced or cried aloud i scream well i have i am always ranting and raving but often think of Nelson Mandela when read that bit and think surely he was the same !!!
I am not a fan of big words but been reading abt the sympathetic and parasympathetic systems and they are a bit like ying yang really u have to both working kinda of in tune together to function well would hate to hear the noise my systems make , the para one is all to do with fight and flight and had someone say your adrenal glands are going way off to kilter prob due to the continual stress and just get things out of my head ( sos kylie )as well as my friend Invictus for some absurd reason have started to think of him as a person no idea y along with learning the fore mentioned poem i am obviously writing more this helps and really shld try this breathing malarky ot where u go in and out but deep breathing and let these systems get in some sort of order perhaps if i could do my breathing they reckon 10 mins which sounds 6 mins to long to me but still think it may be worth doing breathing followed by my friend invictus and seeing how things go from their and see what happens and end it all with a lovely s t r e t ch believe that does wonders !!
out of the night that covers me yer eventually one day I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul