hey hae been doing this in my head but not writing any thing down lazy bones as far to stressed with well life often find its the small things in life that get me going not the big , i was fine in the summer when my niece aged 6 was staying with my parents and took her to the hospital a, where i was relatively calm cld but be something to do with i having spent alot of my life in hospital , does not faze me, and yer was lucky not suspected meningitis but a chronic was ear infection although bit (miffed to say the least when DRS were not sure abt putting a drip up as my parents and myself were not next of kin how mad to leave young kid ill and very stressed and not doing the best for her , i tell u was getting very hot and bothered , the rest of the family had gone to rock concert and cld not be got hold of but i am the master of my fate captain of my soul and stood my ground and soon they relented and a drip was inserted amidst much amateur dramatics (must run in family) and alls well ends well .
In the last week my kettle went bust to someone who drinks gallons of liquid aday cant all be blamed on diabetes (badhabit ) this was a disaster to make me chronically distressed and a few days of drinking luke warm drinks was to many to mention so got a new kettle an expensive one fora change fingers crossed it will last more than 6 months only to find not quite right when got home explodeing time and ptsd went berserk !!!!!!!!vcvs acnbd e words unprounacable sprrouting and biting on things calming me down (not) although friend did tell me it takes awhile for a kettle to settle in its new home , never heard of settling in probs of kettles but seems to be true as soon the drinks became warmer and more settled began to feel slightly calmer and sat on bed and remembered my good friend Invictus , umm think have mastered 2 verses , I took my time and tried to slow down breathing before remembering the words of comfort
Out of night that covers me!! (although sometimes say comforts, me now that deffo does go
Black as the pit from pole to pole I thank whatever god maybe for my unconquerable soul yey 1 verse done now 2nd
something about a bloody head oh yer because of bad life ,er circumstance
In the depth clutch of circumstance I have not winced or cried alone although my head is bludgeoned or is that bloody or unbowed , i am convinced i heard Donald trunp say the something abt is head being bludgeoned this was very upsetting to hear this keep hoping i imagined it yer try again i will learn this whatever (don’t groan) try again
In the depth clutch of circumstance i have not winced or cried aloud (not alone ha ) my head is bludgeoned but unbowed yer that’s it cool 2 verses done 2 to go and yer i feel the end is looming but I am the master of my fate and will fight on !!