getting their Invcitus

OUT of the night that  covers me black as  the night from pole to pole

I thank what ever gods maybe for m unconquerable  soul

In the  depth clutch of circumstance I have  not winced or cried aloud

my head is  bludgeoned but unbowed  I have not written  this  down very  well sos  but  i am tired    maybe  something to do with being  sloth day  but yey   think have got  the  first 2 verses of Invictus  put  firmly  in my head   looking at the poem it is not   to long or difficult  to learn but  for someone like me  who head dips  about all over the place and  can’t concentrate  for long  without ptsd monster  entering my head u will forgive  me if  feel  quite  good about this on the whole  been an ok  day ha

I often wake up with ptsd   and struggle to get the intrusive thoughts out of head so thats y do  things in slow motion and have got into habit of  siting with quilt over head and reciting slowly   I enjoyed  myself  as a whole   the  big  downer  which  has not effected  me to much  i have  come  to  stay with my parents for the night as  mum and i like to watch the apprentice  together  , just found out  only  got one type of insulin   with me  but it will  see me   through the night and  will  just have to have nought  to eat   til  get   home  but no big calamity i will survive  (  ha lucky u   cant  hear me  singing )

I  am the master of my fate   I am the  captain of my soul

 

 

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About loubyjo

I have all my life been fascinated by words and books especially I used to have this strange idea that I could read every book in the world well maybe just 80% of them . My life can at times be really stressful as suffer my brains wires are all wonky which results in me having aspergers syndrome thats probably where all my crazy ideas spill out from !!!IIIalso have ocd which results in my thoughts getting stuck in my head causing me lots of distress , but hey what is perfection and if i ever met a perfect person it would probably send me fast asleeP AND YOU AS WELL SO iIam hoping to use this blog to let you lnow what it is like to be me !! in the last few years also discovered got ptsd this is were most of probs stem from
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