haha here we go again starting off with apologies for no blurb for yeons ( love that word ) about my new friend !! Invictus but honestly i come with a better excuse then the dog ate my homework .
The night before the day when we celebrate burning bonfires and bangs in sky although they seem to go off all the time these days i watched tv (exciting) and decided to land of nod only to feel like hell and went to bathroom (don’t worry not to gory but began coughing blood this continued for most of night til decided to get ambulance more difficult than u any think when live in entry not literally but if blood coming out of mouth and not been fighting u can imagine did not really want an argy bargy claiming i live over a tile shop when i know live over sun bed shop but for life of me could not remember name of it so not impressed !!! but never forget I am the captain of my soul i am the captain of my fate i went outside and waited and waited til saw man in green and able to wave for help and yer they were lost !!!
I did not want to get in touch with parents as they were going to a wedding of best friends daughter so went myself which really is no prob their is a lovely feeling when u get in to a hosi and realise in safe hands . I was wisked from A+E to resus once they realised it was blood were i was lying there in hell one thing cropped ever so slowly in to my mind
Out of the night that covers me
black as the pit from pole to pole
I thank what ever gods maybe for my unconquerable soul
In the depth clutch of circumstance i have not winced or cried aloud ( that is such a lie)
my head is bludgeoned but unbowed
beyond the wrath of blood and tears u shall find me unafraid
cool not saying i manged to say it all but saying the first line did not half help as if to say yer will get better which u can gather must have although always been thin ultra skinny now !!!
i did cause a bit of a rumpus when did not really want to put tubing down throat and kept saying ohhh nooo aspergers dont do that and of course cld do nothing without written consent after much coaxing always good to remember with someone with autism their ideas may sem crazy but with a bit of general persuasion come round and appeared parts of my oesphogeous had gone black and none seems to know why oh well
I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul