hummbug humbug well its December the 1st on thursday and dont feel at all christmassy just keep thinking will start tomorrow !!!!
I had booked ages to go and see when we are married by Priestly yeons ago that long ago i was able to get front row seats yey and i have seen Northern broadsides countless times and always brill so u can imagine what i was like dsbnz\mn and other unreadable sounds came out of mouth as found out my nieieces were coming to stay next weekend as not only was it black friday last week but other things going on like sister in laws birthday , dont get me wrong , i dont mind them coming it was just that my parents thought it better not to tell me as per usual let me know last minute when the saying is pre warned is prearmed or something like that . I f i had known about it for the month i could calmy make other arrange ments . deep breaths and I am the master of my fate , and of course beyound this place of wrath and tears lies the horror of the shade still finding it difficult remembering the word beyound which is surprising as it give so much hope that one day this will be over !!!
I have lost count of the number of times that i have missed shows / plays you name it because of illness or the person going with decided to do something else but it was another friends birthday so she jumped at the chance of a free theatre trip well would not u !!!!
I was really pleased to see The playhouse on tv thursday am talking about people who eat in theatre and how off putting it is to the audience and also the actors who have put so much effort into learning lines as someone with aspergers my ears react to noises that is in the wrong place as i am totally involved in what watching but every sweet rustle is like a bomb going off and just can’t seem to switch the noise off so please think before u eat do u really need to eat this now why not wait an hour and gorge in the interval and yes also no need to have a chat whilst the production is on what u are buying in asda ( other supermarkets are available ) !!!! til it finishes ha ha rant over !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
all well til yesterday morning when kept saying to mum can u get the tickets for me ummm asked again and again before getting frazzled and said or shouted “I need the tickets it came clear she had put them in a safe place so safe that they could not be found
ssanmzc ( put your own words in ) and said wld leave NOW and stormed off bit of my brain kept saying keep calm and of course after stomping to bus top thought of Invictus and opening line OUT of Night that covers me , umm surely they will let me but hey ho theatre not open til just before show aahhhhh ptsd was taking hold and when takes hold it has such a grip on me , even when my dad rang me to say found tickets in the safe place and bringing them over ptsd was revelling in my distress as i stomped round ” not coming out again stay in stay in stay in ahhhhhh
felt slightly better after having a cake well half price one always tastes better went to lou to give insulin ahahhhhh were was my little bag with insulin noooooooo cant eat without ahhhhhh its at home but invictus on mu side I am the captain of my soul the other day had decided to keep spare pen and needle in side pocket so all well on the eastern front really all fronts !!!
well on with the show loved it the audience was great No sweet rustling and bits of humour thrown in with lively people so my mood disappeared and came home feeling relatively calm to play with EVA 6 year old niece although listening to her jokes is not in the least bit funny but she tries and after a tiring day to bed
I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul all is well although not all still staying at parents due to chest pains and not kidding their heating on full blast just melting ho hum better than being cold and going home gave Eva an advent Calender ready for thursday ho ho ho soon be christmas