well a year ago i got a phone call that kind of changed my life not in a big way just changed my view on poetry and how it helps people cope with life !!!
so lets start at the beginning very good place start !!!! b rrr brr ( that’s a phone ha ) i answer it (exciting not ) but it gets better yey its Emily from the reader org asking if would like to help me out with something next year in london reading invictus
I was just about to tell them yer dont think will cause a problem i can be a bit funny and STRESSSED out if leave my beloved mersyside but if I am asked nicely and know my decisions are accepted with aaaaarhhh please come u will enjoy it , i am fine think i just need to know its me in control and dont want others to stear the wheel for me well just abt to say okey dokey when ahhhh pulled my main phone landline totally out of the socket ahhhhhh sshsshhyghw(swear swear they willl think i am cronically upset about being asked and will be all round the office that I slammed the phone down !!!!!!
I thought of ringing back on mobile but said was full this was not looking good so i ended up rushing to Birkenhead were i could explain NOT PUT PHONE DOWN so 20 mins roughly i was their Ring liverpool not put phone and lou says yey members of staff looking with bemused expressions ” well u would nt slam the phone down ummm well i might with words of comfort ringing in ear but not taking any notice zoomed off to get a card explaining self as off to the readers main office for a volunteers do for christmas ( not really in mood ) but still needed to explain self so off went and great fun with christmas fun and grub and all was well as everything was understood and not to worry i hear that alot strange thing last night thought should put main phone on ledge and if i had listened to my inner thoughts would not be in a mess oh well deep breaths that does not help
ZOOOOOOm forward few hrs and at home with no phone i l look about flat for poetry book to see if invictus about and their it was and began to read it , i heard of it slightly in the film Invictus and always had i don’t know why a connection in some absurd way with Nelson Mandela not saying gone through anything like him well i found Invictus and began to read
out of the night that covers me and through to the end aloud the words never hit me really at first but on maybe the second go , i had slowed down slightly whilst i looked at words I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul it was as something had hit me in the heart not in a nasty way but paused and went yer horrendously nasty things happened in my life which has left with unresolved trauma and ptsd and on top of being aspergic and brittle diabetic not easy dont want to sound like a soppy weepy film but u do need something to cling on to life which is easy to get hold of yer i love the last two lines 24 hrs later something from soul ( creepy ) was telling me to learn those lines cos u lou are the master and captain of your life >
A year on from that phone call invictus is still here in my life and would say the 2 verses and last bit know more or less fully , yer like to my time but this is for me and all i can say is thanks to introducing me to this great poem not bad for some one who would much prefer a novel