last night going to bed got in a bit of a frazzle thinking have i been with invictus a a year or is today as 2016 a leap year so that means extra day and skip a day ahhhhh was it a year yesterday or is today ( does it matter ) ha well yes it does it if u are on the autistic spectrum and got a thing about dates and times every thing needs to be correct the sensible side of me says does it matter when your friendship began with Invictus what matters the poem is still with u today yer if u say so !!!
Yesterday my ptsd was at times chronic with ramblings going round round round and could not stop the twirling of my thoughts blogging does help but my bloods hit ultra high levels at 25 supposed to be 7 so no blogging but hey keep cool I am the master of my fate captain of my soul all u have to do is take extra insulin and wait and wait some more til bloods return to normal and hey they did !!
I am still trying to get to grips with 3rd verse
beyond this place of wrath and tears lie the horror the shade were the menace of the years shall find me and find me unafraid ( by ethal i think i have it for some absurd reason can not remember the word beyound all though it is really important as kind of tells u can get through this so-called problem , the main one not the date one !
so think this is it u will just have to take my word for it not cheating ( honest injun and fingers not crossed !!!
out of the night that covers me
black as the pit from pole to pole I thank what ever Gods maybe for my unconquerable soul
in the fell clutch of circumstance i have not winced or cried aloud my head is bludgeoned but unbowed
beyond the wrath of blood and tears lies the horror of the shade were the menace of the years finds and shall find me unafraid ( that’s the difficult me find and shall find me confusing saying it twice but maybe thingy liked hide and seek
so really does it matter how long i have been invictus what matters it is still with me !!! and to finish my piece off went to christmas coffee morning were Farther christmas came over for a chat and he knew me by name yer been good this year !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! believe that u will believe anything