STRESS STRESS STRESS that s what christmas is but on the other hand would miss it if it left as i often say to people lets have a year off but although the christmas card game is a strain, actually do quite like it especially the cards that u get with a sprigget of news and as my mum always says shows someone is thinking of u so although not to sure how getting a card from felix the cat works as sat their for ages going a cat paw heyyyy but yer worked it out in the end and who the human owner ( don’t really know him either )
As my fave poem says i am the captain of my fate so up to me if i send them back and don’t think anyone stamps their feet if dont get a card off louby, honestly i do like them, dont think cld be like my dad who asks my mum to write his very few christmas cards your mates u do it bah humb
I was feeling okish about things before going to bed the other night when all of a sudden thought were are my panto tickets for jan ( long way off but like the 100 years of the cubs need to be prepared )
I had put them on top of printer i am still staying at parents and got BAD HABITS of putting things away with out telling , I went super duper meltdown tearing the place down and clenching teeth on to frabic all major symptoms of ptsd aspie kept thinking wont be in that cupboard etc but mind on over load and nearly went out to check the bins but managed to stop myself mainly cos bin wld not fit kitchen i eventually fell asleep with nightie torn to shred to much info til the next morn.
The next day woke and rambled downstairs and jumped around were r the panto tickets , well Louise i decided to put them in the safe place , although this was a major relief could not really shake my dismay off although shld be made up that tickets found takes ages to calm down , I have a dream if i ever get my treatment for ptsd when things go wrong will manage to take it in stride til then i will have to reley on my always their mate invictus although as a treat to myself shld get to grips last verse !!!!
oh well beyond the wrath and tears lie the horrors of the shade where the menace of the years will find me and find me unafraid yey tomorrow is another day !!