hey ho not a big fan of new year as think nothing really changes i know u can make resolutions etc like give up coffee which kinda done cos of health reasons but my ptsd is chronic this time of year as can’t get thoughts out of head and am biting things all the time apparently when your brain is effected by ptsd u go into hyper arousal mode this is why am very jumpy when someone says hi out of the blue or if something goes wrong i am hysterical .
I don’t know what the new year old neither does anyone else in the world but i felt cannot celebrate new year til this thing goes although i have a strong feeling that this year will improve as at long last over 2 years at the top of the NHS waiting list for emdr which help with reprocessing the bad memories !!! keeping everything crossed .
hey ho off i went to liverpool to look at the sales although not really in the mood it was not the best time to go obviously as everyone else had the same idea so was not exactly quiet and monster in my head kept attacking me i was amused when i was stopped by some yanks wanting to visit Liverpool cathedral yer their s 2 really and ones paddys wigwam they looked horrified and gave them directions to find both cathedrals and was amused , but like anything like just like mental health u just presume that people know what it is like , just as i persume everyone knows liverpool has two cathedrals as so many catholics live here and if u ever come to visit does look like a wigwam.
I was cheered up by the above encounter but not for long i will go back to liverpool when is a slightly quieter although the train tracks from my peninsula over the water is being revamped ( not really mine the Wirral ) so reckon going to be chaotic but maybe not u just do not know I am the captain of my fate and the whatever of my soul ( is new year getting forgetful )
Sadly my mood got generally worse and so could not stand members of my family saying happy new year so went to bed and yer heard fireworks going off but just had to say to self maybe next year , things will get better well basically just have to !!
oh yer will really have to learn or relearn how to put photos on this needs brightening up so yer theirs a new year resolution ha