Been meaning to blog but that thing called life gets in the way , today had an app with dr as my bloods had been ultra high but as i have stated on lots of occasions to medical people my blood sugars are so high because i am so stressed out waiting for an appointment for emdr to calm down the thoughts i have which honestly drive me crackers and i mean crackers any how i digress !!
Just before christmas I had a kind of heart scan which i forget about as don’t feel to bad although do get the odd twinge so u can imagine my surprise and shock when got told that their is something growing in one of the chambers of the heart !!!!! er wot really how can this be it sounds like something from et and stated on the letter not really been seen before although i am often told this !!!!
I must admit not that worried as been shopping and walking all over the place although do get odd stabbing pain , I got my self in a slight frazzle as if my app is for 10.30 I don’t expect to still be siting over an hour later although do know the nhs is under great stress and having no glasses on me to read , umm what shall i turn to Invictus out of the night that covers me black as the pit from pole to pole i was getting stressed but never got to the end as was so busy messing with the wording i had to called twice when name called out .
I feel a lot better just being told nothing wrong with my heart beat but their is something kind of waving in my heart ha ha perhaps that’s were ET and his finger disappeared to .
I am the master of my fate and the captain of my soul nothing i can do about what is growing in heart but sure can live with it