I must admit i did not realise til half way through the day that this was blue monday where i read about it in the library . find it quite difficult to believe that this is the most depressing day of the year when we are only 17 days I am quite th
sure their will be worse or better day ahead !!!
well that line (should not have moved but can’t be bothered moving it now) the whole concept of blue monday was decided upon by a travel company who said the combination of bad weather unpaid bills christmas a distant memory ( good ) makes it a blue day !!
Any how my day was going well was looking forward to starting 2 gents at Birkenhead library ( not kidding reading Shakespeare is FUN } and the more u read of the bard the more u get as his comedy tend to repeat in you anyhow i digress AGAIN
I have an appointment tomorrow hoping to sort my head out with my ptsd but not holding breath that it is the emdr as on the letter says going to be cbt again sos but this does not work on me but I am the master of my fate and will continue fighting ( famous last words ) when my mum goes on that sometimes i put my happy face on and people do realise what going through but to my mind alot of people know i am ill but being with understanding view points make me forget my problems for an hour and of course if been waiting for years for help really not going to go in and say everything fine am I
I actually think my mum is jealous that I get on with various people and not really with her , maybe i am to close to home well she tends to irritate me every time opens mouth ( this is a slight exaggeration) but still .
I must admit blood sugars were very high prob due to stress as not eaten that much but i knew this as thought out reading grp i drank gallons of tea in massive mug so much we ran out of milk !!!! so maybe this day is turning rather blue but as an evertonian i see nothing wrong with the term blue day !!!! (digressing again we had a good and rare win yesterday ) !!!!!
any how came home and bloods were really high surprise surprise not i was going to go to singing cafe which i love to do as lightens my mood but could imagine mum saying ” see u r happy now yer for an hour and a bit so not much out of day so decided not to go !! umm on reflection cutting off nose to spite face springs again to mind.
so on the whole a rather bad day but today my blood machine been yelling at me hi hi hi no not saying hello just letting me know bloods high as kite best leave this prattle and take more insulin huh
Tomorrow is another day ha I am the master of my fate and the captain of my soul
oh yer a proverb The blueness of a wound cleans away the evil !!!!