wow It is now a since since went to the southbank to read Invictus at the time i was strolling around merseyside remembering just the last two lines
I am the master of my fate I am the captain of soul and got continously mixed up with which came first fate or soul a pyschologist who had been helping with the chronic ptsd said “play games with the words while strolling around noone is going to know are they and better then swearing !!! true I cld get an A star plus cant fine the picture thing for a star ( keep calm ) !I
I dont like going away but if it is my choice wether to travel or not , think thats part of the being on ASD spectrum i cant remember being bored ever !!!! honestly and were i live on the wrral it has everything here , well not mountains but can live with out them so have no desire to go anywhere but i have been to london numerous times with a reading charity the reader org without hopefully causing to much hassle !! have lost count of number of people saying never want to go anywhere with u agian with so many rules and regulations ( I dont see what the problem if someone has taken time and trouble to write a guide book about how to travel around the york minster then u should follow it not just wonder about I did go hysterical but that is another story !!!
TRIP to london was fine and saying Invictus with a group of 3 others was fine although did keeo thinking the mike has fallen off head |( again another story ) At the back of my mind kept thinking ” well its not just the last two lines that should be done perhaps the whole lot so thats were it began .
OUT of the night that covers me (love that bit often say just the beginning of it makes me think one day this nightmare i am in will end !)
Black of the pit from pole to pole ( yer that s were my life is a lot not even a candle lit )
I thank what ever gods maybe for my unconquerable soul ( well i am still here kind of although do at times well more often then tha t the only way out is death and then be free but the help with the ptsd has arrived that is another story )
In the fell clutch if circumstance i have not winced my head is bludgeoned but unbowed ( never really liked this as said bit of a sweraholic used to self harm alot but as people have told me the things that have happened have been caused by other people not you so yer suppose ok !
beyond this place of wrath and tears lies the horror of the shade were finds and shall find me unafraid ( often have difficulty with this its the beyond word ha just can’t get head round it but then invictus begins to flow and actually bit of fun with the tongue twister finds and shall find me unafraid but makes me stop and think the alternative to life (death ) is really the last resort and yes help is slowly arriving be it in a drip drip fashion
Ha well this is the bit that am really have trouble with the stright gate business not got head round it yet and got in a bit of mess but its my game which i will continue and perhaps by the anniversary number 2 will be word-perfect bet u thought would be word perfect by now had enough time but actually as psychologist in Liverpool said playing around with the poem is really what is helping u
oh yer I am the master of my fate i am the master of my soul and maybe i will become word perfect and maybe not as entirely up to me but will have fun trying now just got to get through that perkisome gate !!