ptsd 4

Feeling  drowned  by appointments at the  mo  some necessary and some not ,  I need   alot of   space in between  things  otherwise  feel  going to  explode ROB  T (mr  ptsd  thinks  i am like  a phone that   needs  to be  recharged   quite    frequently ,.

After the  debacle  with the name  and someone  having the  audacity  to take my place it  was a case  of  if at  first   do not  succeed try again  and so off i went   4th time  lucky

Rob    examined my life   with the amount of times people  have not listened to me   and     explaining   how i know   what is best for me    with  regard to   being people   but  i am always  pushed to   be  longer   and longer with people and  the fact  that  have suffered  from different  forms  of abuse    along with  a car crash and  my landlord  being strangled   yer   deffo  ptsd  YES  at last  it is official   perhaps   something   can be  done , as explained to  Rob   my dream is to walk to   A  to B  with out   horrific thoughts  in head  no worries  we can do something !!!!

Rob  showed me   a small  box  and told me   we would  go through  various memories while  this box  would  let off  a ticking  noise and  he explained  how the   various trauma   in my life   has   done  damage to  brain i will  have to  investigate  this   fully  something about amgylada   or something and   two parts of the  brain  separating   on top of this   got the  aspergers and   brain hemorrhage  so  no wonder   struggling   but     at  long last  relief   and proper help    round the corner  or  so to speak  in 2  weeks  time  as    just my look  going off  on a  training week but  after  waiting all this  time   an extra   week not going to make   much difference !!!! I am  so  excited  but also worried    as keep being  told  the  emdr  may not  work on me  on account  of me being  autistic  umm  oh well   give it ago   as nothing to lose    I am the  master of my fate  I am the  captain of my soul .


About loubyjo

I have all my life been fascinated by words and books especially I used to have this strange idea that I could read every book in the world well maybe just 80% of them . My life can at times be really stressful as suffer my brains wires are all wonky which results in me having aspergers syndrome thats probably where all my crazy ideas spill out from !!!IIIalso have ocd which results in my thoughts getting stuck in my head causing me lots of distress , but hey what is perfection and if i ever met a perfect person it would probably send me fast asleeP AND YOU AS WELL SO iIam hoping to use this blog to let you lnow what it is like to be me !! in the last few years also discovered got ptsd this is were most of probs stem from
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