Feeling drowned by appointments at the mo some necessary and some not , I need alot of space in between things otherwise feel going to explode ROB T (mr ptsd thinks i am like a phone that needs to be recharged quite frequently ,.
After the debacle with the name and someone having the audacity to take my place it was a case of if at first do not succeed try again and so off i went 4th time lucky
Rob examined my life with the amount of times people have not listened to me and explaining how i know what is best for me with regard to being people but i am always pushed to be longer and longer with people and the fact that have suffered from different forms of abuse along with a car crash and my landlord being strangled yer deffo ptsd YES at last it is official perhaps something can be done , as explained to Rob my dream is to walk to A to B with out horrific thoughts in head no worries we can do something !!!!
Rob showed me a small box and told me we would go through various memories while this box would let off a ticking noise and he explained how the various trauma in my life has done damage to brain i will have to investigate this fully something about amgylada or something and two parts of the brain separating on top of this got the aspergers and brain hemorrhage so no wonder struggling but at long last relief and proper help round the corner or so to speak in 2 weeks time as just my look going off on a training week but after waiting all this time an extra week not going to make much difference !!!! I am so excited but also worried as keep being told the emdr may not work on me on account of me being autistic umm oh well give it ago as nothing to lose I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul .