well can hardly believe tomorrow is the day i start emdr , as u know have been for a few sessions telling Rob my probs ( well not all ) and finally getting people to believe that it is entirely possible to have 2 or even more brain disorders !!! as stated numerous time I am convinced it is ptsd that is the cause of the problems but time will tell .
Yesterday despite streaming cold managed to get out and about to two events over in liverpool one being in St Georges hall and was put together by volunteers who looked to be having great fun retelling the story of Narnia just going to touch on it briefly here as cold is streaming and not kidding u are lucky to get this little snippet of my life but lets say i adored it and kept wishing i had known about it sooner as would have loved to have volunteered to help out , i am not a budding actress but despite being on ASD spectrum do like pretending to be somebody else and in the few community things been involved in it is a great way to build up confidence . ( maybe next time )
I read Narnia as kid and just enjoyed the story of going through the wardrobe ( actually spent a lot of time in my mums wardrobe banging trying to get through )
THeir was strange lamppost in my parents road which reminded me of Lucy meeting MR TUMAS under the lampost but for all this as a child it was just the story that i enjoyed , it was not til rereading the books yeons later that i realised their was a message under all this snow and ASLAN dying and coming back to life umm JESUS and the christian story ahhhhh don’t switch off , i must admit i used to go to church regularly mainly liked the stories and the singing and kinda believe their must be something after this life but actually think what i have been going through is some sort Narnia honestly I feel as been in some sort of winter horror land although have met a few friends on the way that would not have met bit like MR TUMAS and the lovely beaver family but honestly hope that tomorrow will be the start of my venture back to the proper world yer visiting Narnia yesterday was great and will stay with me but would not like to go and visit tomorrow or next week ( dont think open then but still ) a brief visit was enough
I actually hate the saying what does not kill you makes you stronger ahhh don’t say that but i am quite sure people who have visited Narnia in their own lives may not say has made them stronger but has changed their viewpoint and when come against obstacles in life like a brick wall see them as an opportinity not a dead end , no need to bang head against the wall but prob able to climb over or walk round well at least hopefully perhaps not if trump has his way ha he crops up everywhere enough prattle Tomorrow is another day hey ho and I am the master of my fate I am the master of my soul