At long last yesterday was my heart -scan been waiting for this for awhile have had countless messages from well meaning people asking how was I feeling , fine are u not worried er no i feel as i always do although have been very naughty lately drinking coffee crime of the century ( been told not to ) brings back memories of my my who was forever saying to, me
Once their was a girl who had a little curl right in the middle of her foorehead ( true naturally curly hair) just had it straightened only to go out with no coat so curls back !!! digress when she was good she was very very very good and when she was bad she was ( true on both counts i can be extremely well behaved to the extent u would think i had no problems and then agian the monster errupts enough of that !!!
I have gone back on the coffe cos life is so up side down and inside down well if some says dont do something well i do the opposite cos my body etc
ANY how to much digression got the hosi to give me early app due to being diabetic not making a fuss u cant expect a diabetic to go more than a few hrs without muching highly amused that the staff remembered me “lets see if u can stay long enough to do the procedure this time and shouting “she callopsed last time ” yer ok no need to tell the universe !!!!
Then the heart dr ahhhh yes u calopsed last time ( must have been elephant previous life lets get her in before she does it again !!!! so we were off trundled off to a small room were they informed me they were not going to put yuky tube til 100 % sure strange moving wavy thing still their makes sense ( well after some gel and a room full of people saying “Ohhhhh their it is it was time for the yucky tube to be swallowed (don’t try at home ) first time they did this to me i fell asleep god knows how the second time i felt awful so the third time being yesterday I was ready as i thought yesterday what do i do when in terrific pain well not that religious think i am an agnostic lets bet each way and then safe whatever happens
NAAAAA h I remembered Invictus ( not kidding afew times recently been in terrific pain and called out tome well that’s not true dont mean call to him in a God like way but just remembering the poem and the certain words
such as the pain when tube first goes down the mouth ” out of the night that covers me ( this pain wont last for ever )REALLLY IT WONT black as the pit from pole to pole ( still hurts I thank what ever god may be for my unconquerable soul errrrrr u actually get used to and look at the screen at my dancing thing in my heart dancing about ” can u see it “UMMMMM bit later seems nothing much to worry about as says “prob been their seen an embryo so always been their though not supposed to and bit on the large side but does not seem to cause u much problems ” so off u go just keep on eye on it ”
In the fell clutch of circumstance i have not winced or cried aloud ( well that’s true the dr gave me 9 out of 10 good OH thought after “why not a 10 “” !!!!!!
my head is bludgeoned but unbowed !!! ( well abit sore but the minute i managed to eat some toast the nurse bounded over u can go now .
off i went had a bacon buttie in the place to live Bebington on the Wirral and went to a course learning how to be happy ( really naaaaaah does nought for me I am me always do my own thing I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul
Yer I know not touched the 3rd verse on INvictus think heart in pretty good nick plenty more time for that !!!