Umm just realised that is a strange title really what i am saying is a long time since mentioned Invictus ( but also i am still here must admit my journey through the last few months although i am at last having treatment for my traumatic life they reckon i have got complex-ptsd which means has had various traumatic experiences not just one so may take longer than the average to get through )
I still say invictus to my self and still messing the words lines up and really does not matter but thought myself “Y do u put off learning the lines about the gate think most people know the last two “I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul and still get in a muddle but it is more of a scream out that i am in charge not other people !
As a person who has suffered (don’t like that word ) but still it will do as i have suffered from my life from the aftereffects the ptsd man says be cause no-one really asks what u would like to do and when my words of “No i dont want to do that ” sparks off physical mental sexual abuse of my child hood !!! yer it does kinda make sense even in my strange way of writing with my ramblings .
I digress think that is why i always have Invictus either on apiece of paper thin poem book by the reader org ( a charity that does listen to me ) and remember the last two lines yer i am in charge not f,..,,..,,… u !!!
so why i have spent so long not learning the lines about the gate kinda got although keep thinking just gate and thenyey “matters not how stright the gate yer it does have that strange spelling think it is something to do with heaven and u dont have to be a saint to get to heaven although i have no back gate as when my osepheagoeus went black last year and got the ambulance out it kinda neve r shut on me again ( my front door does shut though obviously !!! anyhow then the other invictus bit about the scroll something about it being long the punishments on the scroll something like that !!! ( dont like cheating and looking but do like that line makes me think of my long very long well vvvvvvvvvvv long line of evil deeds and especially thought having ptsd makes u have intrusive thoughts about people and things and honestly would chop my hand off if said it would make then go !!!!! although would want it done under anesthetic !! NOW comes the crunch y have i taken so long to learn the full invictus years ago i went to the liverpool central library with the reader org going back about 9 years much smaller then and someone was talking about ted Hughes and said he had not read all of his stuff as once read he would nothing left to look forward to and maybe that why taken so long but yer i have kinda got the lot but not kidding Invictus is still rather mixed so not going to give u a Morgan freeman saying of it on u tube or at least not yeT