bloods and / emdr 8

Been awhile since blogged    must  admit things   not going   as  well as  thought they would be  after  having  so many emdr  sessions but  reckon  it is  going to take a while as taken so long  waiting for  help and also the   diagnosis of ptsd   as    people  kept saying it  was  the  aspergers  playing up !(  so not  true)

I reckon it   is like the  foundations  of  my life   have to  be  rebuilt    and   have to   do what  emdr  is really   all about  processing  traumatic   events in your life .

Alot of my problems  stem from not being listened  to and people  just presuming  they know  what is best for  me without for asking, i  suppose  everyone  looks at   another   person life   and thinks  they know  what is the best for   them but  really  it is  you  who is  an  expert on  your life and  none else !!

I continued  with the  emdr   have to  try and always  remember  to take headphones on and listen to the  tick tock of the noises  it is  all  very  trivual what am processing  as   in my friend  insisted on   staying with me   when i  really did not  want her   to !!!!!!!!.  th e fist  few  sessions  i felt  really wonderful  leaving   emdr   but today and felt   awful and   was so  thirsty rushed for  a drink in a cafe  feeling like death  so took my blood  sugar it  was in the  high  20s  supposed to be  7  so took   extra insulin and  waitied  for it to  take effect  i find the ptsd  really affects   diabetes   which effects the  aspergers   going  round in  a massive   circle !!!!  i often  say  to  my diabetic  dr  when he is moaning   ” well  are  any of your patients   got  ptsd  and   aspergic    with  brittle  diabetic   not that   want anyone to  get violins out   as  someone one  told me    more   got to  many  variables .

This  morning   went for a blood  test  after half  an hour of  trying to get blood   the blood   nurse  gave up  saying next time  book a double  test  and  to tell them at the diabetic   clinic   that  feel ok and breathing all  must be well

Actually afew  days  later   went to hosi and  not  kidding   took the  blood  test within  5 mins just  by turning  my arm quickly and  to one side   saying  u  just have to  know  how  to deal  with people  with no veins !! so all done  just got  to remember    everyone is  unique and what works  for  one   person may not  work for another person !!

I have no longer   how  long this  emdr  will last  as  everyone is different and  keep  hearing  how  tired  this  whole  process  is  and  i am   one of those   people   that   seems  to  need  to recharge    batteries   frequently    so   can get going with my life   after   years of   being at a  full stop  but   one  day   hope fully will  recover  and   will  be all systems go   but i suppose   patience  is a virtue  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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About loubyjo

I have all my life been fascinated by words and books especially I used to have this strange idea that I could read every book in the world well maybe just 80% of them . My life can at times be really stressful as suffer my brains wires are all wonky which results in me having aspergers syndrome thats probably where all my crazy ideas spill out from !!!IIIalso have ocd which results in my thoughts getting stuck in my head causing me lots of distress , but hey what is perfection and if i ever met a perfect person it would probably send me fast asleeP AND YOU AS WELL SO iIam hoping to use this blog to let you lnow what it is like to be me !! in the last few years also discovered got ptsd this is were most of probs stem from
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