Been awhile since blogged must admit things not going as well as thought they would be after having so many emdr sessions but reckon it is going to take a while as taken so long waiting for help and also the diagnosis of ptsd as people kept saying it was the aspergers playing up !( so not true)
I reckon it is like the foundations of my life have to be rebuilt and have to do what emdr is really all about processing traumatic events in your life .
Alot of my problems stem from not being listened to and people just presuming they know what is best for me without for asking, i suppose everyone looks at another person life and thinks they know what is the best for them but really it is you who is an expert on your life and none else !!
I continued with the emdr have to try and always remember to take headphones on and listen to the tick tock of the noises it is all very trivual what am processing as in my friend insisted on staying with me when i really did not want her to !!!!!!!!. th e fist few sessions i felt really wonderful leaving emdr but today and felt awful and was so thirsty rushed for a drink in a cafe feeling like death so took my blood sugar it was in the high 20s supposed to be 7 so took extra insulin and waitied for it to take effect i find the ptsd really affects diabetes which effects the aspergers going round in a massive circle !!!! i often say to my diabetic dr when he is moaning ” well are any of your patients got ptsd and aspergic with brittle diabetic not that want anyone to get violins out as someone one told me more got to many variables .
This morning went for a blood test after half an hour of trying to get blood the blood nurse gave up saying next time book a double test and to tell them at the diabetic clinic that feel ok and breathing all must be well
Actually afew days later went to hosi and not kidding took the blood test within 5 mins just by turning my arm quickly and to one side saying u just have to know how to deal with people with no veins !! so all done just got to remember everyone is unique and what works for one person may not work for another person !!
I have no longer how long this emdr will last as everyone is different and keep hearing how tired this whole process is and i am one of those people that seems to need to recharge batteries frequently so can get going with my life after years of being at a full stop but one day hope fully will recover and will be all systems go but i suppose patience is a virtue !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!