I AM recovering slightly from learning that I have pure ocd although bit difficult to know I will never be fully well but to be bluntly honest i always knew this !!! so although I have dreamt for years that one day i will be what i used to be but this is just living a dream !!!
I have been told that i just have to be assertive as i am my own person one of my pet hates in life people telling me how to live my life !!! which brings me to this i picked up from somewhere
you are the only expert you are unique
there is only one you
recognise individuality in everything you do
what you need to be happy if for you to decide
no-one else has sufficient perspective on how you feel inside !!
I know not the same hitting power as best mate poem Invictus which is still with me ( maybe tomorrow say more on that maybe not ) but for someone like me and prob u and the other million trillion others people on the planet it kind of reminds me that although we are all one their is only one of you so who else can know you better !!!!!
I have alot of inner feelings in life someone once told me i was surrounded by angels find that hard to believe but nice thought but do think we have some inner being not sure if its a soul guiding us but if i look back which is not always a good thing i am deffo getting a nudge from something telling me which to go !!! and i suppose we don’t often stop and listen to what is inside of us i like to take time getting to things tend to be early rather than late so can just relax and think and pause !!!
I remember ages ago getting a train over to liverpool as was going to the theatre my friend persuaded me to get the 6.45 train over when the show started at 7.30 b ut the train did not turn up luckily a friend from the reader on the platform but gave us a lift but never again should have listened to my inner thoughts .
I know it is a cliché but life is a journey i feel as if i have been stuck at one point for yeons but hope to to arrive at a different destination but it may not be the destination i want myself bit like going to Torquay which is very nice but not quite the same if u were expecting to go to BARCELONA !!!
PERHAPS INSTEAD OF DREAMING OF WHERE YOU WANT TO BE THINK OF WHERE YOU ARE NOW !!! OH WELL I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul keep going !!!!! the journey has to stop one day just hope like it when i arrive !!!