life of dreams

I  AM recovering slightly  from  learning that I have pure  ocd   although   bit  difficult    to know   I will never  be  fully well but   to be   bluntly  honest   i always  knew this !!!   so although  I have  dreamt for  years that one day  i will be  what i used  to be   but  this  is just living  a   dream !!!

I  have been  told   that   i  just   have to be assertive as  i am my own  person  one of my  pet hates in life   people telling me   how to live  my life !!! which brings me to   this  i picked   up  from somewhere

you  are the only  expert  you are unique

there is  only one  you

recognise  individuality  in everything  you do

what   you  need  to be happy if  for you  to decide

no-one   else has  sufficient  perspective   on how you  feel inside !!

I  know  not the  same hitting power as   best  mate poem Invictus  which  is still  with me  (  maybe   tomorrow   say more on that maybe  not ) but   for someone  like   me and   prob  u and  the  other million   trillion others  people on the planet    it kind of    reminds me  that    although  we  are all one   their  is only one of  you so  who else   can know   you better !!!!!

I  have  alot  of inner   feelings  in life    someone   once told   me  i  was  surrounded by angels    find that hard to believe  but  nice thought    but do  think  we  have some inner   being   not sure  if its a soul   guiding us   but  if i look  back   which is  not always a  good thing  i am deffo  getting  a nudge   from  something   telling me   which  to go !!! and  i suppose   we  don’t  often   stop and  listen   to what is inside of  us   i like   to take   time   getting   to things   tend to be  early  rather than late  so  can  just  relax  and think  and pause  !!!

I remember ages   ago   getting a  train  over  to liverpool as  was going to the  theatre  my friend  persuaded  me  to get the   6.45 train   over   when  the  show  started  at  7.30 b ut the  train  did not  turn up  luckily a friend   from the  reader  on the platform  but gave   us a  lift  but  never again   should  have  listened  to my inner thoughts .

I know   it is  a cliché  but life is  a journey   i feel  as if   i have   been stuck at one  point   for  yeons   but  hope  to to arrive  at  a  different   destination but  it may not   be the  destination i want myself   bit like  going to   Torquay   which  is very  nice  but not   quite the  same  if u  were   expecting to go  to BARCELONA !!!

PERHAPS   INSTEAD OF   DREAMING OF WHERE  YOU WANT  TO BE   THINK OF  WHERE  YOU   ARE NOW !!!   OH WELL  I am the master of my fate  I am the  captain of my soul keep   going  !!!!! the   journey  has  to stop  one day  just  hope like  it when i arrive !!!


About loubyjo

I have all my life been fascinated by words and books especially I used to have this strange idea that I could read every book in the world well maybe just 80% of them . My life can at times be really stressful as suffer my brains wires are all wonky which results in me having aspergers syndrome thats probably where all my crazy ideas spill out from !!!IIIalso have ocd which results in my thoughts getting stuck in my head causing me lots of distress , but hey what is perfection and if i ever met a perfect person it would probably send me fast asleeP AND YOU AS WELL SO iIam hoping to use this blog to let you lnow what it is like to be me !! in the last few years also discovered got ptsd this is were most of probs stem from
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