i HAVE VERY LITTLE PEACE in cos i have discovered this strange thing pure ocd which is kinda relative of aspergers but seems to get out of control when you are under severe stress !!
TODAY I WENT TO a local church were they had a community showing of an old film called the fast lady very slap stick which i am not a big fan of I never find it funny people falling over and very obvious jokes but perhaps i am in the minority AS THE Rest of the room was in uproar apart from my friend from the Shakespeare reading grp who was also not laughing which made me feel bit better not that it matters that we are all different that what makes the world unique that we are so different I did not find that much peace here though as thoughts from my dreaded head kept popping up perhaps because i was watching a film that although u did not have to concentrate a millimetre was not something i got totally absorbed in
Yesterday after finishing and have off my sessions with the emdr for ptsd which was not much emdr which was helpful and alot of chatter which is not helpful as like my thoughts every thing just goes round and round just like a roll of sellotape and it is just impossible to find the end !! ho hum so was not really at peace here !
I went to my Shakespeare grp after were we are reading merchant of Venice i get abit lost with alot of the speeches but must admit right the way through the grp i was at peace perhaps cos concentrating on the text and because i kinda run it with my friend i was very conscious that everyone had a turn but their was no torment of thoughts and felt great this morning when she told me she got a bit lost with Shakespeare and i said well i am supposed to be running it and not much of a clue but DYL commented ” well you cant tell you just spring into life like blossom um if u say so ut think their is something and escaping mental health and thinking deeply about other things as i am at some sort of peace here although stress still forms luckily my friend Marion helps with all the teamaking each to their own I say !!
I came across by accident some sort of poet / saying man he seems to have alot of meaningful quotes which are thought provoking !
In the rush and noise of life as you have intervals of peace step home and within yourselves be still which is true i do try to be still but it is only when i am in land of nod that i am at true peace I often think the world rushes to much and when we come home and relax thats were find peace !!! but again each to their own whilst writing this i am at peace prob because i am thinking what to say although as you can tell not bothered about grammer !!!
I am jealous of people who find peace with God i am in the middle when comes to religion but am known in a local church although don’t go to the services just the fairs reading grp and film club but each to their own as what ever makes you happy is like coming home !!!