I have been interested for awhile in like what can only be called the inner self what is me throughout my life i have felt something what is it telling me to go a certain way is the soul who knows !!!
I know for a fact if I had listened to my inner feeling / thoughts would not have been in the mess I am in now !!!
I don’t remember a time when I did not read and parents will often talk about me walking round with a book had very little interest in dolls or people just liked to read or look at pictures !!!
I have no idea why people gets so upset about following your own way in life i remember parents getting upset that i did not go out and about as much as other people my age and tried to explain that i was quite happy siting in the garden reading i was happy doing what i wanted !!! why do people get so upset because people like to be themselves rather than going round in a gang ! It all made sense once diagnosed with aspergers but people still made comments about me being by my self yer sort out log in yr own eye before getting the speck out of mime I knew of a neighbours son who very rarely left the house saying he would sort himself out when ready and after getting a part time job for a year or so has just got himself a job in London yer he knew what was best for him and after spending time by himself for years he got the right messages and is now ready to live his own life !!!
People still get upset about the time i spend reading but it is what i enjoy although a friend said ” you read like an autistic , like read everything dont choose in the right order and totally engrossed well that makes sense !!! although it is difficult to decide when to say this book is not working for me lets give up but I dont i just carry on going !!!! althoughis to short to read as someone told me life rubbish true but i am open to all !!!!
I tend to always to go the same way every where and so it was a total surprise when nearly 10 years ago walking round Birkenhead felt this need to go and check out the Lauries community centre which had been opened by Paul o grady awhile back so off i went bit unsure as never been their before but something was nudging me over ” go and see what is over their ” umm so off I went i was bit disappointed at first as although claimed to be a community centre it obviously was not and looked at me gobsmacked when asked what goes on then!!!! not alot umm well have something to eat and lets get out of here and so picked something to much and ate ( exciting this ) not but wait over their in the corner was a grp about 3/4 people siting in the circle reading , from a book it FASCINATED ME LOOKING VERY RELAXED AND BEFORE knew were i was the other side of the room asking what they were doing very rude !!!! and shock horror we are the reader org sit down and join us so i did and for the first time ever felt totally at home and could not wait to go home and tell my mum what i had found and the rest as they say is history still involved 10 years on although do my own grp now with a mate and still someone who read read reads but the bi g difference not alone but with friends !!!!!
I wonder what would have happened if not listened to this inner voice life is still not easy but without the shared reading grp alot harder and it silences my thoughts which are horrific with ptsd /pure ocd !!!! but does silence when reading more so when not alone so just stay open to curiosity and what is over their cos you can know when the inner being is nudging !!!