I have suffered from ptsd slightly since the age of 13 and full blown for over a decade with ocd most of my life but just discovered got pure ocd as well which is actually a relief to me as at least i know their is a reason that I think all these horrendous thoughts !!!
The main reason for this m any brain experts reckon come from yeons ago when mankind lived in caves and well they had to be alert for most of the time otherwise disaster could strike such as eaten by I don’t know a lion or something of that nature the brain had to be alert otherwise no more little BILLY !!!!
If a lion comes near to u your brain reacts with chemicals such as adrenaline and cortisol which is fine if going to be eaten up as you know to run off but if someone scams you in the internet world then the chemicals stay in yr body i reckon that is why i am on alert system all the time and if anyone comes round the corner unexpectedly i over react with a giant scream cos i see any shock as a threat even when it is harm less
I f u get over the what ever is upsetting you the brain is again flooded with dopamine and you feel relaxed and warm and fluffy but this can also cause probs later on.
ocd often develops as the brain thinks as to something over and over to be safe i am forever getting books even on kindle but have always been in dread of having nothing to read although i am told constantly i could stay at home til 110 but still would not read them i have to certain places out otherwise get distressed saying this not sure which is ocd or aspergers think they are supposed to be distant cousins when a person with ocd repeats an action it supposed;y calms down the anxiety of not repeating the action but actually there is no threat at all if i did not walk round the library nothing would go wrong I know deep down nothing will happen but just kinda have to check all is well with the books used to always take unpopular books home with me as felt as doing them a favour and trip out by leaving the library shelves.
I often dream of having a day or pushing it a bit a week /month without these thoughts but that is just dreaming of world peace just wont happen but we can all do our bit n been told to beat this kind of disorder is ignore it umm like a horn blaring in the street
whilst trying to sleep !!! sigh need a cuppa too much thought
I am the captain of my fate i am the master of my soul deep breaths