In life it is really like being on a pendulum continuously up and down and hard to stay in the middle , I am still waiting for a proper result of my adhd what ever !! but must admit at times i am really surfing on top of a wave only to go crashing off !!!
My mum is nothing like me she will ways put everybody else before her which sounds wonderful but not when your own self suffers as a result , I do get annoyed when people say “You are nothing like your mum ” that’s because I am me and although it is a good thing to do to help others i have learnt over the years it is good to look after yourself otherwise everybody suffers i cant do my voluntary work if i don’t look after as blood sugars go to pot and my brain is whirling like a tornado .
It is not good to be so hard on yourself with your so called inner critic and maybe do as i do develop a sense of humour or be show self more compassion .
I am rarther accident prone and although do well in middle distance running am really not agood team player so i just laugh , awhile back i came last in a game of skittles but actually got a wooden spoon whilst the winner just got round of applause whilst i got both
If the inner critic was to shout at myself ” can’t catch bowl whatever i would just begin to feel depressed and only really harming self !! but to laugh or use self compassion their is just “oh well at least will deffo do better next time !!!
I have often read bits on buddhism although not good at following it but it suggests inlife do three things 1 self compassion ( done that so really don’t use the british stiff upper lip but be kind or laugh )
2 have a sense of humanity I know that are some people who seem to be good at everything and not kidding gets a bit boring when they are a success at everything when they actually dont become the top star they honestly are destroyed so better to realise that all humans fail at something it is part of being ourselves , a Gp said to me once ” do u play cards ” errrr no not really he then ” you have a really awful set of cards to play with but actually play with the cards you got really well !!! umm M AYBE WOOAHHHHH ACCEPT COMPLIMENTS YEP i DO !!!
3 MINDFULNESS JUST KNOW WHAT IS GOOD FOR YOU ( HA Not writing in capitals and slow down and look around you !!huh shattered now so lecture of life over going for a cuppa
feeling quite calm now Out of the night that covers me black as the pit from the pole to pole