It is now the middle of August more or less but really not been a good summer well it never is although when as kid don’t remember all this wetness and gloom/ doom but may be looking through rose tinted glasses !!
I was thinking today of how you don’t really know were you are with the season go out in a t shirt as it seems hot but very soon i am diving into a shop to get cheepish jumper as was living in the hope that the good weather would stay all day !!
My moods are like the ever changing mood I really can’t think when i have been happy like the sun shining but even then probably become to hyper (adhd? add what ever the label is of the moment just like the weather forecasts doom and gloom if we actually get good weather for more that 2 week s
I actually quite like the Autumn and the musty smell although always worry it may get to cold and living in a flat that is hard to heat = nightmare !!!
Winter is thought of with gloom but can get crisp cold days but nothing worse than fingers gone white with cold and can’t turn key to get into flat !!!
Moods can be likened to seasons winter = never going to be well , SPRING = things looking up can only get better summer yey going to be fantastic right through WRONG oh yer Autumn just feeling bit frightened what cld be ahead not sure anxiety racing .
I suppose at the moment i am edging cautiously towards spring in a strange way hoping that i am diagnosed with some form of add a then i can do something about can’t do much if u don’t know were the leak is coming from if get puddles on the floor so to speak and maybe all will be hunky dory !!!!! and the football team down the rd TRANMERE WILL WIN THE PREMIER LEAGUE BUT we can all hope !!!
I suppose most people wld say spring is their fave season cos it represents hope and you generally feel fresher lighter especially as all the heavy clothes comes off but as my Nain used to say never cast a cloud til may is out you just don’t know what is going to happen just like mental health I never really know what person will be throughout the day a real Jekel and hyde person!!!
life seems more colourful in the spring and the flowers begin to bloom and of course the daffodils start to sway and it wont be long before u hear the infamous daffodil poem by Wordsworth and think we are here again spring the sleep of hibernation is over and we are springing into life the sun is shining birds are singing and we are urged to seize the daY
BEWARE though spring is like my mental health when i think well i have managed to sort that out no more problems going to have a good time now all fixed but wham no longer do i get used to one syndrome illness disorder got used to being aspergic diabetic lets try stomach heart adhd pavola it is never ending but hope is what i have like spring one day they will sort everything out and i will have the summer everyone talks of 1976 but even that had it downer apparently swarms of ladybirds .
the seasons are all in the mind spring summer autumn winter and you really cant be sure what season it will be tomorrow just like living with various health conditions oh well at least it is interesting and up to me what i do for i am the master of my soul I am the captain of my fate !!!
Came across a quote the other day by someone Henry miller not sure who he is who cares !!!! The aim of life is to live and to live means to be aware joyously divinely aware !!! yer stop and smell the roses