ahhh what a week Invictus

not blogged  for  an  age but what   a  difference a week makes  !!!!  and just  been  tired  and   i blog  cos i like it   no other reason   calms   my head  down  !!   but  still  have  things  taken an  upside  today b ut realise this not   making  sense  so lets    start  at the   very beginning a  very  good place to start

Last weekend    my dad went to   Goodison  park   as  he   does   so for the   last   70 years  as my granddad   took him   first off  and   dad had   been  moaning   more than  usual   that  he was not going   to renew  his  season ticket  as    got no faith  in the  current  manager    big sam   and  he finds   it so   tiring  getting to the match on public  transport !

The Sunday  passed  without incident   myself at  usual   book  group  at    water stones   but   coming   to parents home   my dad  was extremely pale  and making  weird  groaning   sounds  from the bathroom    i know  alot about  hospitals  and when u   shld get   definite   help but   despite   being  saying   get  an  ambulance    ” no its  fine  he eventually   got a taxi   up with me   saying  relatively loud  ”  make sure   go  to a/e    so was   surprised  as anything  when hey  returned    from the  hosi   having  been sent  home     from   out of hrs   AHHHHH u dont   go there   when  yelling  with pain  not much  more   happened although   i was    convinced   they should   go back  but   what  do i  know someone  who spent  a large  portion of life   in hosi   (nought) so he  was back  home in  pretty  much the same position

I  was   wondering wether i shld  stay at  home  instead  of helping   run  the play  reading   grp  but got a text off mate  who runs   it with me  telling  me  her  dad  was in a    chair and  fell  backwards and broke  his  femur !!!! so    decided best to  go as really can’t   have both of u  gone  walkabout   so off i dawdled  i am not  at the best at  organising   refreshments    for people it just panics  me  organising   things   remembering    just the little things  and  to  top it all was   3  new members   ahhh     don’t mind   new  people  but prefer   then coming as individuals  and  know  something  abt  me  so  dont  have to  explain   y i react  to things the way  i do  .

As  a whole  the grp   gets on   very well but lets  just   say the  vast majority are on the  eccentric  side of life  which suits me fine !!! (obviouslY)  but not so  good when get  a   person who  is not used to  a member of the  grp  saying ” I know  a song that  fits  this  Shakespeare  play and   sings  a quick ditty of   a folk song which actually   did  fit  he story of  Pericles  but   perhaps  not everyone’s   cup of tea     with worries of my head i just  took the  grp shld be  lucky  was their at  all  oh well !!! deep breaths    all will  be well waiting for bus  feeling  incredibly stressed  but took deep breath  ( again) and repeated  Out of the night   that  covers me  black as the pit from pole to pole  I  than whatever  God  may be for my unconquerable   soul or in other words  I   will get  through  this  yep i will  !!

my dad   was still not himself and  ignored  my advice  of going back  to  hosi (surprise  surprise )  and just  to add my ever  growing list of probs  my fingers   began to  bend  over and not  able to move  let me tell u it is  weird   i have been  having trouble with hands  for a while  with   funny  little  bumps  growing on hand  i had  shown my hands  to someone  in diabetic  clinic   were  got told  it is  very common in diabetics   and is   something  to do with the   viking s  ahhh so well  I  do  seem to collect   unusual ailments  that’s why it  takes me so  long to   write  something now  and    dont   like to  type  or to long oh well  I  am the master  of my fate   I am the  captain of my soul    o r  tomorrows  another day ha   deep breaths  !!!





About loubyjo

I have all my life been fascinated by words and books especially I used to have this strange idea that I could read every book in the world well maybe just 80% of them . My life can at times be really stressful as suffer my brains wires are all wonky which results in me having aspergers syndrome thats probably where all my crazy ideas spill out from !!!IIIalso have ocd which results in my thoughts getting stuck in my head causing me lots of distress , but hey what is perfection and if i ever met a perfect person it would probably send me fast asleeP AND YOU AS WELL SO iIam hoping to use this blog to let you lnow what it is like to be me !! in the last few years also discovered got ptsd this is were most of probs stem from
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2 Responses to ahhh what a week Invictus

  1. Can’t wait for next instalment Lou….

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